4 AM

*disclaimer*: this isn't a sob story or anything, I just needed to write down some of my thoughts, and I don't care if other people read them.


Anyway, I still don't know what i'm doing with my life. And as much as I hate to reference a musical, an example to which most you theatre "freinds" can relate would be that I feel a lot like Princeton searching for his purpose. But that's just about the only similarity--I am niether light orange nor made of cloth...and by no means do I let people stick their hands up my butt to get a reaction from me, but most of you know that already.

I'm rambling.

Anyway, I'm still closed. About as closed as that Venture that used to be on Shawnee Mission Pkwy near Pflumm (now it's the big Powerplay). If you know me well, you know how I tend to hide my feelings and emotions. I'm getting better at it. So good luck.

boring..

I'm going to KU now (obvious statement of the day), and I am really enoying it so far (not quite as obvious, but predictable). I have my own little apartment all to myself, which is nice when you want to be naked, but sucks when you want to be social...(or socially naked.. :-/). But anyway, it's comfy. Classes are good, weather is nice, football game was awesome (good start to the season).

what else...

All-in-all, I couldn't be more happy with my life right now....ok well, that's not true, but it's hard for me to be negative. Even though my life may not be "ideal", I like to see it as art, like something created, and I can appreciate it better that way (even though it might look ugly in some parts to some people--especially to me). Regrets?..I don't have any. Mistakes, I have plenty..but no regrets. Everything is a learning process, and the mistakes we make decide who we become, which is never anything but perfect.

wow. eloquent....

umm..that's all ya get for now. I'm tired.